August 27, 2016
so today i am supposed to work on the evening shift. Alone
i woke up early today doing chores, get everything done and finally i got time for myself. watching make up tutorials. these girls got me thinking how do they afford these expensive make up when they are not even working?
too faced,kylie jenner lip collections,mac,tarte,naked pallete,nars, urban decay and the list goes on.Probably because they get paid for doin review or because they comes from a rich family. let's not judge them shall we?
after watching those tutorials, i admit that i am a bit excited to get my hands on those collection. to be completely honest, i only have 1 lipstick, and 2 liptint.right on this moment. Being adult with commitments,you can't really buy things you want.you got bills to pay, a stomach to feed, saving money for emergencies and etc.
i know there would be guy who said that i don't need all of these make up to make myself pretty, and saying that guy prefer girls with a bare face. honey remember the last time i asked your opinion about this?
NO? me neither . so shut your mouth and go away :)
some might be wondering what i do for living? where do i live? where do i work? (because i just read my email. my long lost blogger buddy were asking these question)
i think no matter how talkative you are in real life or in social network there should be boundaries/limit/secret.
this blog has been around for 7 years and it is just my tradition to keep my private life private.my old post might contain my old past self, immature even. if you wanted to know how my life has change you just need to read my old post . ( i hope you dont)
August 20, 2016
i am not a fans of cerita cinta. dulu zaman zaman remaja adalah layan sikit sikit. tapi sekarang ni kurang.
tapi ada 1,2 cerita cinta melayu yang aku boleh kata memberi impak pada aku. contohnyaaaaa
cerita manisnya cinta di cappadocia and istanbul aku datang.
urm... aku paling suka watak positif ifti yang fazura bawak tu. dia macam seorang positif dan sangat tenang membuatkan aku rasa aku perlu jadi macam dia jugak. Sejak beberapa kebelakangan ni aku senang menangis. asal stress je aku menangis. asal stress je menangis. aku rasa aku patut stop berkelakuan kebudak budakan walaupun nature aku macam tu.
and watak lisa dalam cerita istanbul aku datang pun aku suka jugak. bagi aku. karakter aku lebih dekat dengan karakter lisa dalam cerita tu cuma dia cantiklah aku tak.hahaha.
selfless. senang kena tipu. selalu happy tapi senang menangis. itu aku.
but pain always change people.
aku tak boleh selamanya macam ni kan? aku nak berubah . i have to
dunia ni kalau lembut sangat orang pijak. kejam sangat orang benci.
jadi kenalah jadi medium. May everything getting better soon.
oh thanks to my bestfriend pujuk aku semalam. sampai bila bila pun aku sayang kau, but no worries as a friend only. tapi lepas nangis semalam aku rasa lega sangat sangat.tidur pun sampai 12 jam.My body need rest as well as my brain.
tadi aku timbang ada la jugak turun. sikit je la tapi. but nvm a little goes a long way. daripada tak ada progress langsung kan ?
August 11, 2016
yesterday was the day . the day i told him about my feelings. it's really awkward . he allready knew. all this while .. he knew. but he act normal. i like to be his friend. i just hoping that everything will be the same like before. only god know how relieved i am .
he is a good man despite of everyone say about him. he has a good heart. that is value that is not everyone have. he didn't push me away and still wanna be friends with me. this what makes me love him even more. i meant as a friend. it's time for me to move on. i'll always pray for his happiness and mine too.
i'll just focus on my work and building my self confidence back.it is too early to tell you guys about this but i am dying to share it now. let me just say that i am up to something. something really big . if the project went well, i could say bye bye to my current company and probably retired young..
sounds great right? i'll just focus on the progress and stars gaining as much information as i could.
this would take up most of my time. so i need to manage my time properly. i dont want put so much expectation on this. if it's working,,, good for me. if it's not.. there's always a plan b,c,d and e.
August 10, 2016
hey guys.. i'm back..
so as u know i am currently working in damansara. so my schedule is not fix but i am truly enjoy myself working there despite of the expensive-ness.
even a banana would cost me so much. (no joke)
so few days ago i went to the curve. me and my cousins were having a brunch at zawara coffee. food was nice, drinks were super good especially mine. i had a chochlate chip frappe and i ordered myseld a burger in which i already forget the name was, a churros with chochlate dip and a buffalo chicken wings.
the price is just a standart price like the normal fancy shemancy fast food restaurant would cost you. so don't be scared to give it a try. because i was making a lil bit extra money so i paid the bills . i only need to pay rm142 for 4 person serving and extra 2 side orders. (even cheaper than secret recipe)
so if you guys looking for a place to chill, you should visit this place. (it is located at the street the curve. you need to make a right turn in the corner once you see ben's restaurant)
after that, we went to shop a few things and just look around for sales...
anddddddddd guess whom i bumped into? his gf.
but anyways.. she's cute though... and also...
we're enjoying a live band at asam pedas. it was so cool. after a quite a long time, i finally found peace. it was just so calming and chill evening. feels like revisit the place for a sake of a good music. i did a video but this blog couldn't support the media. if you guys wants to watch it .. just go on my instagram or facebook.
till then ,
ola good morning peeps.
this thing bugging me for a quite sometimes. i was legit crying inside. things shouldn't turned out this way. i could master any games no matter how hard it is. but never on this one.
the heart and mind games. i think people should really stop giving another wrong hint/ impression.
it should have a clear objection, refusal or accceptance.
human likes to complicate thing . ( i am human, so do i)
i should've say it but then i am too scared. the words itself are very hard to delivered. the consequences freak me out. what would happen next if i let it out?
what if we're just meant to be a good friend? i myself didn't see a future with him... since you know.
he doesn't look like a guy whom would take a further step in life. i mean .. marriage it just not for him.maybe he haven't thinking about that .. yet..
i'm sorry if you read this and thinking that i'm judging you... i am observing you..
not to be frank or anything. i am fatally attracted to you....
if i could avoid this feeling honey.. trust me.. i would.
i like the idea of us being a good friend...
you're there when i'm down. i will be there if you're down too. i think it is even more beautiful relationship.. and stays longer than so called love relationship..
if things meant to happen, it will happen. and no so string attach. you'll be free and i've got my wings.
no such bullshit of " why you are not replying my text?" things.
no such things as " you didn't answer my phone calls, are u with someone else?" kinda things
tbh, i'd be dying of not talking to you.. because i am clingy as fuck.
but clingy is not always good.let's enjoy our life and let's god decide.
to my future self.
you might hate me for writing this. please note that your old self is fragile and need a medium to express her feelings.1 year from now, everything would be different. i might have a crush on another guy. or in a new relationship of someone i haven't met yet. or get married
i'll never know..
it's good to be back on here. i might be posting a few more entries this coming week.
August 3, 2016
it's been a while since my last post here. ( i always came out with the same intro didn't i?) HAHA
SORRY ABOUT THAT.
as time flies, there're a lot happening in my life. i am currently giving myself a break from any relationship.
but somehow, my heart was stolen by a great guy. again.
we're not dating. we're just friend. close friend.
i don't know much about him. he's probably dating someone else and i didn't put much expectation on him. he was just a great companion. someone whom i can go to and ask advices from.
my ex is nice tho. he's trying hard to win me over but still ..
honey, how could you fix a broken heart?
we're rarely contact each other. i get myself busy with works and stuff. trying to boost back my confidence level to 100% and self treat whenever i get the chance.
like what i did just now.
i am always into sephora's cosmetics and i get myself a chloe perfume since this is one of my fav perfume by far. And i also bought a few clothes from my fav store and a few accessories from lovisa.
shopping is indeed the best theraphy for us women. couldn't wait to make more and more money in future so i could do this often.
i also bumped into my ex boss. she was surprised to see me. i totally forgot that i lie to her about my current job. i felt sorry for her since the outlets that we're putting our sweat off previously need to closed down. but anyway i wish she will be able to find a new project to run and may the bussiness expand gloriously. amin