Sophea : Player Two In Real Life and april "confession"

 

Hi

selamat hari khamis. after consideration i finally post the stories dekat pretty potato. i create a new story for my friend from singapore nama dia sorfee. This gonna be a very sweet short story. Sebab ni adalah life after montclair university. 

kalau suka baca cerita macam ni pergilah my tiktok okay. Nescaya korang delulu kali sejuta.  I post cerita ni dikala ramai orang perlukan hiburan. Yang light light not too dramatic and not too dull too.

I baru up sampai episode 4. Malam ni i maybe akan buat draft so esok i boleh post a few more part. Ni kira macam test water la dulu. Dekat part 3 ada a few yang excited nak tahu apa jadi. Part 4 belum ada lagi reaction besar besar because scene dia maybe predictable.

i think so. 

writing kinda heal me in a way.  character yang i guna memang i sample dari kawan kawan i. mereka semua wujud di dunia nyata HAHAHAHA

Cuma  watak mukhris tu nama ayah dia i tukar la. Dia memang category t20 cuma i tak tahulah pulak kalau parents dia sekaya mukhris dalam cerita i sebab tak perlu pun nak tanya hahaha. Mukhris yang i kenal humble even macam richie rich. 

i hope mukhris tak baca story tu sebab HAHAHA honestly i dont know how he will react on this. kalau ada dari our mutual baca.

no... i dont have any feelings for him. I just like his personality. Una memang macam ni. For me la.. for me... apa yang buat someone tu macam attractive is the way they carry themselves, how they live their life. Their manners . yes betul muka penting tapi berapa lama orang akan actually stay with looks kalau perangai you macam sampah?

begitulah dia conclusion saya.  I am a very direct , brutally honest person.  Oh btw sekarang i nak cuba refine balik my workout . sebab i rasa macam 1hour brisk walk tu tak cukup sebab tak ada weight training

semoga i jumpa workout routine yang sesuai dengan i . I ada follow. few others yang dalam this journey. Best pulak tengok diorang buat video. Saya malu... HAHAHA.  Korang doakan my journey di permudahkan tau

My april confession

i guess after raya i dah okay with everyone after i minta maaf personally with everyone. I boleh interact with some of the girls. Even some of them no longer in discord and i'm quite miss them actually tapi i think maybe masing masing just busy dengan life masing masing. As someone older than them i pray for your happiness okay? With the world news yang agak merisaukan  i cuma harap semuaaaa orang yang i sayang dilindungi tuhan, dimewahkan rezeki dan may you guys heal from whatever that broke you. 

 stay positive, stay humble .

akhir kata semoga Allah merahmati  kita semua

sekian

 yang tak sabar nak sihat semula

 una mn

April the sick month, ujian Allah dan stay in positive vibe?

 

Hi guys

harini i pergi office macam biasa .  i jawab call and i batuk tak berhenti. My colleague concern gila and ask me to jumpa doctor.

chinese girl name x : babe.. why are you coming to work ? you tak sihat kan?

me : (almost crying ) i takut bulan ni dah banyak mc

chinese girl name x : ya kalau you mati tak sampai 10 minit diorang akan cari pengganti you. go home now

 

me: *terdiam*  okay. okay..   ( i go to my manager L ) L can i go time slip?

L : time slips only 2 hours babe. u tak larat kan? go mc boleh?

me : okay...  ( settle my job and go clinic in the same building)

Sampai situ i duduk jap . Masuk dalam dr tanya.

dr : you berapa lama dah sakit 

me : a week ++ 

dr : lamanya! jap babe. i think we need to do blood test

me : ha? i takut you tak juma vein i. i gemuk

dr : chill i nampak dah vein u * continue ambik darah kejap je dah settle *

me : *amazed* waaa kejap jumpa dah . (terus terflashback kejadian last august sampai biru biru ambik darah *

dr : kenapa sebelum ni tak jumpa ke?

 

me: aah maybe before this i besar dari sekarang. sekarang i besar kan dulu lagi besar. i tengah cuba lose weigh doctor

dr: i seee  okay good luck on your diet okay but after this kena xtray tau. 

me : (angguk angguk ) 

after blood test, xtray kena ambik nebulizer pulak. at this point with my running nose i just accept whatever treatment needed sebab i nak sembuh cepat. lepas nebulizer dr beritahu my result

dr : awak ada bronchitis

me: whattttttttttt

dr : ya.. hmm so later  awak dah start kena ambik inhaler everyday 

me: NOOOOOOOO

dr : YESSSSSSS

i tak suka bergantung ubat. I lagi overthinking sebab based on experience nothing ends well relying on medicine. Yihhhh tak suka . Can i justtttt not take it? hmmm entahlah. i would rather lose weight cepat cepat than relying on this. tapi itulah dia doctor you pulak cuma una. 

stay positive una stay positive.  korang doakan i cepat sembuh. cepat kurus. I terdesak nak kurus cepat. 

tapi this time no more reta, no more supplements kita natural all the way. saya janji saya sabar and trust the process. 5km everyday una 5km everyday and you are good to go. Btw tadi i happy i masuk live evertts kejap.dia dekat london tengah shooting. 

me: everttss!! una dapat 4 flat semester 1 . you wish me good luck kan. i dapat that good luck!! 

evertts : yo unaaa congrats!!!

he then said he is busy even keaamatan pun tak dapat balik sabah. he is booked and busy. But so proud of him.  esok cerita dia keluar. so silent readers ku jangan lupa esok okay. Esok dorm 403 keluar dekat tv3 

isnin-khamis 10 malam . 

k lah i penat 

i nak sambung menulis

till then

ttyl 

una mn

My unpaid therapist

Hi guys

harini i mc lagi . sebenarnya i almost fainted while driving yesterday .Kebetulan. pagi semalam ada orang 

double park my car and tak angkat call which mebuatkan i lambat . So alang alang tak sihat i pergi la ambik mc. Sampai clinic doctor bebel dekat i 20 min. Dia bagi nasihat la. sebab dia dah cakap dah before this kalau lebih 3 hari demam datang balik. Kita pulak degil macam mana kan. 

I redha jela kena bebel tu sebab dah salah sendiri . I balik ingatkan nak rest tapi i teringat assignment tak siap lagi. Then yesterday i buat my assignment. So alhamdulillah my individual and group assignment dah siap dah semua. I am so happy and i hope my team boleh siapkan their part cepat cepat. Now my focus is  on my midterm and. final exam. Individual assignments tu 14 chapter each subject tau .  

i cuba  preserve the flowers tapi end up jadi kerabu . i post on discord dae nampak and dia bagi i video kena celup dalam wax la flowers tu. But this dumb dumb dah potong the flowers from tangkai . HAHAHHAA  Sorrylah dae. penat penat la dia buat. Tapi i dont think he kesah. Tapi kalau u kisah i minta maaf. I memang tak pandai seni.Art is not my thing . but i snap the picture already. I dah order polaroid picture.cant wait to get the polaroid . 

I kan dah masuk discord balik. I sense the vibe is not the same maybe because the absence of a few people yang dulu active. Tu i taknak kupas la. Tbh i takut my presence macam menganggu the peace of that place. Lagi lagi to the host.why? i taknak cerita lebih. biar dengan i je tahu. Sebab takut i give wrong impression. I honestly love that space so much. I am not intend to force connection, chasing or apa apa jela. I genuinely love my friends.Honestly he is very welcoming cuma  i je overthinking lepas apa i cakap dekat dia. last thing i want ialah interrupting his safe space . semalam dae masuk live i . he said he on mc jugak sebab beraya sampai 4 pagi. dia suggest me to play iflip7. I cari dekat youtube. macam susah je game tu. HAHAHA. we talk about uno and then dia dah nak keluar beli bunga. i asked him to buat video. honestly i enjoy his content sebab it remind me of my arwah opah. she love flowers. i remember how i betul betul stress kena paksa gubah bunga sebab i used to play like a boy. Dengan my short pants berlari , panjat pokok. arwah opah risau i tak nak jadi perempuan. but look at me now crying over little thing HAHAHA. 

i sekarang selalu buat live . and cara i buat live macam a bit odd to some. I sometimes nak live tak nak orang masuk unless its my friends or cousin. Sounds picky tapi itulah live tiktok macam unpaid therapist.

Sebab ada benda i luah kat situ i berani sebab tak ada orang masuk dan dengar. benda yang i takkan cerita dekat blog ni. Thats how i manage my stress now. talking without audience but feel like i ada audience faham tak?

i tak ada mental capacity nak berbual banyak orang. i suka berbual dengan orang i selesa je. bukan sombong tapi selectively social.  semalam i dm sorfee i show her my hair. i genuinely like sorfee punya rambut.  mine long tapi since i dah pakai tudung and masih gemuk i  tak  buat rambut lagi for now. Tunggu dah kurus baru i will do whatever i want. bukan untuk post but just to take picture and keep my photo masa muda. mana tahu dah tua nanti adalah gambar i boleh tengok. Battling with insecurity is no joke guys. rasa malu nak ambik gambar. tak nak being included in any group photo. Malu nak jumpa orang. doakan perjalanan i di permudahkan semoga yang baik baik berbalik pada korang

okay lah 

i need to do my cardio , 

see you in my next post

love

 una mn