to my future self , from my present life.

ola good morning peeps.

this thing bugging me for a quite sometimes. i was legit crying inside. things shouldn't turned out this way. i could master any games no matter how hard it is. but never on this one.


the heart and mind games. i think people should really stop giving another wrong hint/ impression.
it should have a clear objection, refusal or accceptance.


human likes to complicate thing . ( i am human, so do i)

i should've say it but then i am too scared. the words itself are very hard to delivered. the consequences freak me out. what would happen next if i let it out?



what if we're just meant to be a good friend? i myself didn't see a future with him... since you know.


he doesn't look like a guy whom would take a further step in life. i mean .. marriage it just not for him.maybe he haven't thinking about that .. yet..


i'm sorry if you read this and thinking that i'm judging you... i am observing you..

not to be frank or anything. i am fatally attracted to you....


if i could avoid this feeling honey.. trust me.. i would.

i like the idea of us being a good friend...

you're there when i'm down. i will be there if you're down too. i think it is even more beautiful relationship.. and stays longer than so called love relationship..



if things meant to happen, it will happen. and no so string attach. you'll be free and i've got my wings.

no such bullshit of " why you are not replying my text?" things.
no such things as " you didn't answer my phone calls, are u with someone else?" kinda things


tbh, i'd be dying of not talking to you.. because i am clingy as fuck.

but clingy is not always good.let's enjoy our life and let's god decide.


hahaha

to my future self.

you might hate me for writing this. please note that your old self is fragile and need a medium to express her feelings.1 years from now, everything would be different. i might have a crush on another guy. or in a new relationship of someone i haven't met yet. or get married


i'll never know..


it's good to be back on here. i might be posting a few more entries this coming week.


so ttyl

love

una mn.

girls do what girls do best.

hi guys.. 

it's been a while since my last post here. ( i always came out with the same intro didn't i?)  HAHA

SORRY ABOUT THAT.

as time flies, there are a lot of things happening in   my life. i am currently giving myself a break from any relationship. 
but somehow, my heart is stolen by a great guy. again.

we're not dating. we're just friend. close friend.

i don't know much about him. he's probably dating someone else and i didn't put much expectation on him. he is just a great companion. someone whom i can go to and ask advices from. 

my ex is nice tho. he's trying hard to win me over but still ..

honey, how could you fix a broken heart? 


we rarely contact each other.  i get myself busy with works and stuff. trying to boost back  my confidence level to 100%  and self treat whenever i get the chance.

like what i did just now.

i am always into sephora's cosmetics and i get myself a chloe perfume since this is one of my fav perfume by far. And i also bought  a few clothes from my fav store and a few accessories from lovisa. 

shopping is indeed the best theraphy for us women. couldn't wait to make more and more money in future so i can do this often. 

i also bumped into my ex boss. she was surprised to see me. i totally forgot that i lie to her about my current job. i felt sorry for her since the outlets that we're putting our sweat off previously need to close down. but anyway i wish she will be able to find a new project to run and may the bussiness expand gloriously. amin



till then
ttyl

love 
una mn

the cry baby and so called her life update . ( una at work)

dear diary

these couple days i feels like crying. a lot.

many things happened.rasa penat jadi cry baby ni. dulu aku tak macam ni...

kadang kadang aku terfikir adakah ini side effect kerja dekat kedai kek dulu? sampai hati aku jadi tisu macam ni?

bestfriend aku pun sampai letih agaknya dengar cerita aku. sorry shafiq.. aku tak sengaja hold kau lama lama semalam. and sorry kalau termalukan kau kat ss2 sebab menangis macam pompuan gila dekat dalam walk in chiller. and kudos to ammyrul, aini and hisyam sebab berjaya buat aku rasa happy balik. 

you guys memang ada special place dekat hati aku dah walaupun  kita baru je kenal.

aku kadang kadang rasa cam nak pergi jauhhhh je.

jauuhhh jauhhhhh... supaya aku dapat lupa semua benda merepek ni.

tapi macam pepatah kata la.. gambar boleh padam.. kenangan???

semoga ALLAH keraskan hati aku balik. 

lama lama boleh kering tangki air mata aku ni.. kang tak ada supply plak nak nangis waktu akad nikah .(akad nikah yang aku sendiri tak tahu tarikh,calon dan sebagainya lagi) hahaha

hmm aku rasa macam nak tengok ghostbuster esok lepas habis kerja.  tengoklah nanti camner. oh pasal lari jauh jauh tu kan. plan aku dah terbantut sejak rampasan kuasa turki yang baru ni. actually i am about to buy the flight ticket tau... tapiii since benda ni aku jadi takut pulak. may turki will always being lead by a good leader.. amin.

okay la nanti kita sambung cerita lagi.

ttyl 

LOVE

Una Mn