December 1, 2016
It's december already.
I know i can't force you into anything you don't wanna involved with.
After our meet up last sunday,
I set so many hopes on you.
I hope you'll miss me in which i know you won't
I hope you you"ll find me, huh what am i thinking?
You are doing just fine without me.
Maybe your life getting better without me interrupting you days and night.
I come into conclusion;
No matter how good you are to people, you can always be replace and forgetten.
It's not that hard for people to forget me since i got no specialities and ugly as fuck.
It's human nature to just remember or cling with a beautiful thing.
Whatever i said to you on sunday with my shaky voices is truly from bottom of my heart.
I know i've been crazy, i talk to many people, and being friendly
But i've never treat other guy the same way i treated you.
I know there are my attitude that made you felt that i am not serious too and i am sorry.
If you want me to change , i'll change for good honey.
Just say it.
Since it is not a good thing pun to hit a guy just because they made me angry.
I know i am a female and should act like one.
I will honey i will.
I miss your stupid jokes, your facial expression , And your gentle and soft sides.
I am actually missss you and sort of mad since you are being busy with your works.
I can't force you to meet me anyway.. I'll try to understand you
You said you wanna try, i hope you will.
But since false hope will hurt me even more i'll just think you are joking.
November 21, 2016
There is up and down in life it's normal. I am making a final
Decision here. After a few years being super duper ugly,
I finally want to change for good. I wanna be pretty.
Dress well and start taking care of my skin,Losing some more weight
And toning my body in a cheaper way . I want to hit the gym but you know it is
Impractical to me .
My main concern now is my chest area ,hips and tigh
I want to loose some fat in my chest area and belly.
I set my target already. I want to achieve at least 60kg by the end of this december.
Andd then slowly getting my 50kg body back .
I will also searching for medication to brighten up my skin and started to wear lenses and
Get my lashes a bit thicker. Sound exciting right?
Hell yeah. I got 1 month and 9 days. Left for the mission.
Wish me luck okay guys? Love,
Life kinda hard these days. I feel lost.
I lost my bestfriend. Yes, you. You are my bestfriend.
My boyfriend and my love one.
Only god know how important you are to me.
I am trying my best to stop bothering you.
I am happy to see you today.
Eventhough with a long face of yours.
Honey, what is wrong? Why you look so angry
I want to see you smile like you usually do.
Just smile baby. Smile ;)
And oh i am also starting my diet okay honey boo.
And guess what?
I lost 3kg in a week!
You can't really see it because it just a small figure.
I know you might not read this. But if you
Happen to read this .. so this is my update.
Cause it is just my habit to talk to you ,
I just can't let go of that habit.
I want to hear your story too.
I miss your happy voices,your laugh and
So what is new thing on your collection this week?
As a shoppaholic guy you might get a new thing
I notice you are getting thinner. I can't really see
Your fat belly.
I am predicting myself to reach 60kg by the end of this december.
I need your moral support, love.