hi guys...
so today's entry is not about where i went or what i bought. I just want to talk to you.
or express my feelings. 2022 taught me a lot about life . tak dinafikan i dapat buat banyak benda this year. dapat spend masa dengan family selalu , bercuti , staycation. dapat bagi hadiah emas for my mom and mother in law. and for that i always thankful. cuma biasalah kita hidup tak pernah sunyi dengan masalah.
i selalu cerita dekat orang terdekat je. i prefer not to share it here sebab i nak blog ni ada banyak benda benda happy untuk i kenang . i pernah dengar orang cakap berhati hati untuk share our problems sebab not everyone will be there to support you. some people even feel happy bila tengok you susah . So yeah... i prefer masalah masalah yang menjadi resam hidup ni i simpan sorang. or share with the closest one.
lagipun bila difikirkan balik nak dibandingkan dengan masalah tu dengan segala nikmat yang Dia dah bagi pada i sangatlah kecik.
most of the time i just rasa anxiety je . i mean like korang pernah tak bila life has been treating you too good and you are in denial. nothing wrong happened tapi you guys just overthink that ooooo lepas ni mesti ada benda buruk jadi. i think im not alone kan?
mesti ada yang rasa macam i.
okay... satu lagi sebab you guys know that i am the type of person yang ada yearly wishlist.
for this past few years alhammdulillah i am being consistent . so 3 tahun i berjaya completekan every wishlist yang i nak. i believe that is happened because Allah want it to happened.
and satu lagi i amalkan untuk tak share any wishlist i sampai benda tu dah complete. i mean like right now if anyone tanya i apa wishlist i for next year i will not tell them because i believe "evil eyes" ain.
mesti ada yang fikir kalau percaya dengan evil eyes why you keep posting everything that you buy?
tbh.. kalau you guys ingat i tak cuba . i dah cuba.the things is i memang addicted to express my happiness.
you know why? because growing up even i bukan dari keluarga yang susah. but being an eldest in my siblings i terbiasa to work for everything that i want.
i bought my first bicycle with my own money even i was just 5 years old. i dah biasa belajar simpan duit dari kecik. so my first phone to from my own pocket money. even baju baju i masa college pun 90% i beli sendiri. 10% baru my parents beli. i dont blame them because masa diorang muda it's okay untuk pakai baju tu repeatedly in a week. my parents pun kerja badan uniform. diorang tak belajar sampai universiti. my mom only study postbasic sebab memang disuruh kkm.
so as someone yang dah biasa kena berjimat cermat i think i deserve to spend my adult money and be happy about it .
i know that orang fikir i macam tak ada problem. hidupku nampak tenang tenang saja.
actually i do have challenges in life hanya saja taklah extreme. i just nak luahkan dekat sini supaya i chill sikit and tak put pressure on myself.
it's good to push yourself to be better. tapi jangan sangat okay una?
you may plan all you want but if things doesnt go as planned .
gunalah plan b. if plan b doesnt work gunalah plan c....
maybe sebab my plan for next year bukan material things macam this year.
more to self development. itu i macam kinda nervous sikit.
trust the process okay baby?
till then
talk soon
ttyl
una mn
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