Sembang christmas dan insecurities yang membunuh

 

Hi everyone

harini  i happy sebab i kerja. entry lepas i cakap i punya cuti last minute kena tukar kan.. tapi luckily i, S & N  dapat swap offday and kami bertiga kerja harini. the other 3 cuti. Harini i join next batch punya group sebab orang yang usually guide kami cuti jugak harini. they will be working on saturday. So i can meet my niece aleesa. Ni kira macam our yearly tradition makan makan before year end. 

oh btw korang final exam i ahad ni. wish me luck tau! ikut hati i nak jawab cepat cepat je. tengok nanti macam mana.  Harini i pergi kerja bawak kereta. balik tadi i send my teammate pergi lalaport sebab ada team building. i supposed to go too tapi i taknak. Tapi dengar cerita sooner or later i still have to go. Eish i seram sejuk la tadi. Masuk je parking i terus meremang. I tak tahulah kenapa i rasa semacam. I pun tengah  period. Hmmmm.

btw harini super relax call tak banyak. I berkenalan dengan budak batch tu. Ada  dan, farhana and hani. Diorang semua peramah. Ada guide nama shah. he is nice too.  I tengah cuba diet tau korang . They gave me cupcakes la, buah la. so comel. 

 i have one week left before this ojt end.  Esok start la week 6. I am so nervous tapi hopefully i still get the help i needed. Kalau schedule tak berubah ... I dengan A might work in the same shift. 

semalam i ada meeting dengan HRBP . so adalah benda benda dia tanya. I  openly said that i am still learning and please sabar dengan i. oh hrbp i orang philipines. I lupa nama dia apa tapi let name him X

X: can u share your journey in ojt iris ?  any improvement that we can make to make the training experience better?

 

i : i am still learning. it's been challenging and please bear with me. If anything that need improvement 

   is me. only me .

X: (pandang i concern ) iris.. are you about to cry?  please dont say that. You not giving yourself credit enough. 

i: i think i can do more.

x: be patient iris.. everything need time. You are doing good

bila dia cakap macam tu i nangis. :/ i tak tahu apa masalah i. i mean why i keep doing things like this dekat diri sendiri. I hope one day i can love myself more and more. 

maybe sebab for now i tak suka apa i tengok dekat cermin . Kesian dekat una (iris: my contact centre name).  Susah jadi orang insecure ni. 

Sayang diri sendiri ya una.. kalau you tak percaya, tak sayang diri sendiri siapa lagi nak buat kan?Dont beat yourself up . If there is anyone yang should treat you right .. it must be you. Jangan harap sesiapa nak treat you better if you sendiri treat diri you macam sampah.

okay sekian luahan hati i harini.

sekian .. 

yang tak ingin lagi insecure

una mn